[ that's pretty much exactly it, yep. he doesn't say that aloud, though. he keeps his gaze averted, avoiding clark's eyes.
if he tries and it doesn't work, if he surrenders completely and gives himself over (because in his mind, that's what it is, a total collapse of every piece of armor he's tried to rebuild around himself) and bruce still decides to end his life, because jason isn't worth reversing his decision, it will destroy him. if he were on firmer psychological ground he might risk it anyway, but not like this. not right now.
but he won't insult clark by saying the words "I can't." ]
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if he tries and it doesn't work, if he surrenders completely and gives himself over (because in his mind, that's what it is, a total collapse of every piece of armor he's tried to rebuild around himself) and bruce still decides to end his life, because jason isn't worth reversing his decision, it will destroy him. if he were on firmer psychological ground he might risk it anyway, but not like this. not right now.
but he won't insult clark by saying the words "I can't." ]